Life is life... is life

The things I don't want to do now..

to let loose.
to move on.
to let go.
to cry.
to laugh.
to smile.
to know.
to find out.
to change.
to pretend.
to bear the burden.
to think.

why?
Ever feel like life strangles you with hurdles and then when you think you've overcome it, it just washes you over? its merciless sometimes.

okay, my research proposal got rejected. I'm sad and I just wonder.. all the effort we put into our research.. this happens? Maybe we haven't found many facts...but whats the point of a research if you're not allowed to do what you want? When this happened, they said, " I advise you to drop your theoretical framework"
It took me quite awhile to understand the framework. And I grew to like it. Now I am expected to let go and start afresh? Its not easy..it really isn't.

what next?

I don't know.....i'm still using the same framework. Just that now.. I don't want to focus on my research proposal. i should finish assignments which have an earlier deadline...

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goodnight